Like I said a lot of bad luck and crappy feelings have been surrounding me these past few days. First I can’t go to my school anymore because I’m not zoned for it. This means I become anti-social and be home schooled, or go to the worst( bad test scores and constant fights) high school in my county. So after just starting to get excited about school I can’t go anymore. On top of that my step dad’s car isn’t starting which means when we go to school for the rest of the school year( not long, actually just four days) my whole family gets to get squashed in a EXTREMELY small truck.
I won’t have ANY friends anymore now because my friends and I don’t spend much time after school as it is. On top of that I have all these feelings about this girl at school and I can’t tell anyone at all. I mean they might not care at all actually because one of my friends is gay and is friends with some of my friends. I honestly can’t take anything anymore. I had all these plans that would lead me to my future which is now just a total blur. I planned on staying in JROTC throughout high school and get a ROTC scholarship to a school and become a naval officer. But now I don’t see that happening at all. Now I see me at some college and being unhappy and being in debt for the rest of my life.
But I should be optimistic right?
I’m sure lots of home school people get into good schools. And if I tell my friends before summer that I’m gay, they might not care at all. My step dad’s car will probably get started again soon. I’ll do awesome on my finals next week! I also have a field trip to a amusement park tomorrow which should be really thrilling!